I’m scared of falling in love with you because every time I’ve attempted at love its failed. Not even the type of failing when you just fall off, or when you decide you both need to grow. This epic high budget movie explosion type of failing. I’m scared of falling in love with you because deep down a part of me feels like I don’t deserve it. I don’t deserve every hug, every time you look into my eyes, and just the overwhelming sense of happiness you bring into my life. I worry that I am not enough to make you stay. That you’ll need something else, someone else, that I inevitably could never be.
I’m scared of falling in love with you because I don’t want to get used to you being around. The day you came and laid with me in the hospital bed made me realize how you are starting to redefine what home means to me, what love means to me. I know I should be happy with this kind of feeling but I guess I’m scared it’ll go away just as fast as it came.